I made my peace. She too had a history that made her the person she was and it’s sad that she had to go thru the panic inducing process of dying. In the end she was a human with hopes and feelings just like me. It’s just that we never matched. From time to time I think of her but I’m not missing her. I miss my dad. He was the innocent person that found himself in the crossfire.
E.g.: Ernst Röhm - the leader of the Nazi SA - was gay.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Röhm_scandal
And to make your head explode: There where jews who supported Hitler.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Association_of_German_National_Jews
Spoiler: It didn’t end well.