Sounds like you might enjoy people being honest to you rather than enjoying compliments or criticism. Criticism is more blunt when said to someone’s face, but compliments can seem disingenuous, so maybe you don’t believe the compliments subconsciously
There is cooklang which I use in Obsidian. Maybe there are shared repos out there. They have a discord server you could check on
Honorable mention: https://www.completefoods.co/